Anxiety

As I’ve mentioned before and will probably mention a million more times- I have horrible anxiety. I honestly can’t remember a time I didn’t. Even as a young child- I just didn’t know why I felt the way I felt and what the cause of my stomach issues were.

Today I had a panic attack. Also as I stated before I do not function well on little to no sleep. Well last night and to be honest the past few nights have been rough. Lily is congested again(I’m moving south!) Which means she wakes up constantly. I ended up sleeping in the chair with her. It just wasn’t a good night. I also feel like I’m getting run down and fighting off some sort of sickness. After work today I needed a nap. I figured we’d nap together. But she had other plans which included not napping. I started to have a panic attack. I calmed myself down a couple of times. At one point I put her in the swing and laid down and just cried. I finally pulled myself together and took lily out on the porch getting us both some much needed fresh air. I realized then that she had a blowout. Anxiety attack over. Who would have thought of that as a way to snap you out of it hahaha.

Side note: I’m beyond over sickness. I feel like she’s been sick since November. I don’t know how to help her build her immunity. I’m guessing the weather going from -50 last week to 50 this week is what her problem is and probably mine as well. But I’m exhausted and frustrated and I need her to be healthy. I use humidifiers, oil diffusers and on and on. If anyone has any advice please let me know.

Anxiety is awful and if you are lucky to not suffer from it I’m so jealous. It feels like I can’t catch my breath, the walls are closing in, if I don’t move then I’ll stop breathing. My thoughts are racing and I feel like my head is spinning. I’ve figured out a way to handle it most of the time… walk, talk to myself or others, focus on my breathe, have noise in the background and reach out for help.

If anyone is in need of some one to talk to, confide in or just say hey I’m not doing so good please reach out to me. I never want anyone to ever feel like their anxiety is a burden to others, especially to me.

Jenn