Restless

Today has been a bit of a rough day. It led to being pretty restless this evening and while I was able to spend time outside on my porch, it still didn’t feel like I was content, if that makes sense.

I love my job. So, so much. It is incredibly refreshing to have a job that I feel like my boss has my back and my coworkers are all there with the common goal: get the job done but enjoy ourselves as much as you can while at work. But the only downside I have found is that because this company is really one of the best I’ve seen, people don’t typically leave for new jobs. They stay until they retire. Which means my coworkers are mostly all well versed in the manufacturing world. Some with 37 years under their belts. Most with at least 15. Then here I come, a newbie to the world of manufacturing and with zero clue about much of anything, and there are a lot of times that I feel like an idiot.

My coworkers are so incredibly helpful, patient and fun. But I am hard on myself. Probably harder than others are on me to be honest. I think that’s normal though.

Every thing I did today was met with resistance from something. It was just a really frustrating day. And luckily I don’t have many of those anymore.

Having a rough day makes the evenings kinda suck. I’m working on that. I think tonight could’ve been worse, I could have really let it effect me. But I was able to relax a little and just enjoy the breeze outside.

When the days are tough now, I just remind myself of how difficult they were a year ago. 2 years ago. 4 years ago. Things have gotten significantly better and I’m thankful for that.